It's strange having to go about your business on the anniversary of a day that changed your life so drastically. It seems like the world should stop or something, just for today... but of course that's impossible. I lost my angel Mommy one year ago today. I was nervous all week as this day approached because I wasn't sure how I would take it. I had a really good cry last night. I reflected on this time last year and a lot of emotions came back that were difficult to feel. I texted my dad and he reminded me that she wouldn't want us to be sad today. She wouldn't want us to be mopey and cry all day. And that is true. It's not easy to NOT be sad on a day like today. But I think I'm ok. I miss her. SO MUCH. All the time. She truly was my best friend, the best mom I could ever ask for and I'm so honored I got as much time with her as I did. She wouldn't want me to be sad... so I'm going to do what she would do, stay busy :)
I've grown in so many ways in the past year. I've received so many blessings. I've been shown so much love. I've had some experiences that prove to me that my mom is STILL my mom and still with me everyday. She is my guardian angel, she is Kohen's guardian angel, and so many others angel as well. Of course I still cry and have really hard days. I still wish she was just a phone call away. But I know she's hard at work taking care of all of us from the other side and will continue to do so until that marvelous day when we are all reunited as an eternal family.
I heard this song a while ago and it was so amazing how much it affected me. It is such a great reminder of the things I know, that I WILL see my mom again.
I love you mom. Thank you for being there for me. Even now I know you are involved in my life and I know you watch out for me and for Kohen. I know you still take care of all of us. Thank you for being the best example of a mom, friend, and person I could ever have. You are so amazing. You are such a huge piece of my heart and I can't wait until that part is full again. I love you!
Always,
Kelsey
