Now, I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do, and I really think I, personally, would feel more comfortable in a hospital in case something went wrong, like if he's breeched or his heart rate drops, or he's too big and a C-seciton is necessary or anything else. However, I have been feeling like I may want to try and have Kohen naturally... which I honestly think I won't be able to do haha so I AM aiming more towards seeing how it goes when my contractions start and deciding if I want an epidural when its all happening. But I have 2 more months and I reserve my right to change my mind :) haha I am not very tolerant with pain so I bet I will have an epidural. The documentary really bothered me, though, because it made hospital births seem dangerous and stressful and hard on the mother and the baby, which honestly did scare me a little, but I know so many people who have had wonderful experiences in the hospital with an epidural. And I also know a few women who have had their babies at home and 100% natural and they loved it.
SO. I am just interested in what other people think about natural births, home births, and hospital births. I am going with a hospital birth so I'm not looking for opinions on what I personally should do, I am just curious as to what other women think about this subject. I think every woman has the right to decide for themselves what is best and most comfortable for them and their baby :)
I am 30 weeks today!!! I can't even express how excited I am. But I can express how impatient I am :) I want Kohen to be here! But I want him to be healthy and strong so I guess I will just have to practice patience and wait until April 21. I already love my baby boy so much, and I truely hurt for those who are unable to have children. I can't imagine the pain those women go through and the trial of accepting it and trying to live with it everyday. So my heart goes out to them. I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father has allowed me to be a mom and to prepare to be a parent and to share this experience with a wonderful husband who loves me. He is amazing. The other day I was having a little breakdown, just from being tired and huge and having an achey back and for a moment feeling very helpless. He showed me the video below and it really strengthened me. I am so grateful for the beautiful stance that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has on families, motherhood, and eternity. I know I can get through anything and YES I am scared of the sleepless nights, the tears, never seeing my husband, and the pressure of raising a child to grow up to be a good man, but I KNOW God loves me and will bless me and give me the strength I need to be a good mom. I know that with out any doubt in my mind because He lives and He loves each and everyone of us!
